Wednesday, September 25, 2013

The most difficult decision I have ever had to make.

If you've been a reader for awhile you know that my dogs are my children.  My furbabies.  A huge chunk of who I am.

Unfortunately that chunk became a little smaller today.  Rob and I had to make the most heart-wrenching decision.  A decision we never wanted to or expected to make.

Recently Klutch our 1 year old mix puppy (pit/lab is what we have been going with) developed aggression towards our 3 year old boxer Piston.  For the past two weeks or so Klutch has been directing his growls at Piston and the growling has escalated to full on dog fights multiple times.  Two weeks ago I was sitting in a recliner right next to them when one broke out and since I was close enough I got a busted lip in the process.  Since then the growling has escalated multiple times.

Yesterday was when Rob and I reached the breaking point.

After an afternoon dog fight I was already on edge as they sat across the room from each other with Klutch side-eyeing Piston's every movement.  When Rob got home.. we were all excited.. but somehow another dog fight happened.  This one left Piston bleeding and we knew right then we had no choice in the matter anymore.

Klutch went into his kennel and the longest night of my life ensued.  Piston cried. Klutch cried.  I cried.  In fact I am pretty sure I have cried more in the past week then I ever thought possible.  By 10:30 the next morning I was defeated.

We loaded Klutch up and took him to his new home.  Unfortunately it's a shelter.  It's not with us.  And since he has shown aggression it is hard telling if he will ever make it out of said shelter.

My heart breaks thinking about it.  I feel guilt for not being able to provide him a stable home.  I feel sad that his future is so uncertain.  I feel like I just lost a child and I don't know how to cope with this or how long it will take for me to "feel better".

But I know deep down we ultimately made the right decision.  I can sleep a little easier knowing that Piston is safe.  I am safe. Rob is safe. Baby G is safe.  And somewhere Klutch is safe.

I pray he finds his forever home.  I am holding fast to the notion that everything happens for a reason.  God will protect my sweet furchild and lead him into a better situation.

I just know without a doubt that hands down that is the most difficult and heart-wrenching decision I hope we ever have to make.  Rob has been my rock through this.  My parents have comforted me from long distance.  My sweet baby boy that has been through everything with me, has smothered me at just the right moments.

And I know I will be okay and more than anything somehow Klutch will be okay.


always,
amanda
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Tuesday, September 24, 2013

I'm feeling 22. Weeks that is.

What Fruit are you?
A spaghetti squash.

Due date:  
January 28th. [Or the 26th according to my last ultrasound!]

How far along:  
22 weeks!

Next appointment:  
Had an ultrasound today!  Next ob appointment is 2 weeks from today.
Gender:  
Girl!

Total weight gain/loss:  
Up 6 pounds.

Swelling: 
Not recently.. thank goodness.

Maternity clothes:  
Pants, yes.  Shirts, no.  Although my wardrobe is shrinking by the day as they just aren't long enough!

Belly button:  
In!
Going to clean my mirror... now.
Sleep:
Not too good... I had horrible, horrible heartburn a few nights ago.  Between that and allergies, I have a hard time getting and staying comfortable at night.

Food cravings:  
Just food in general.  I am always eating.  Rob thinks it is ridiculous how many times a day I tell him I am hungry.

Symptoms:  
Awful heartburn one night last week.  Otherwise fairly good.

Movement:  
Tons.  She is so active.  Just waiting to be able to see it from the outside at this point.  It's only a matter of time.
Labor signs: 
None!

What I miss:  
Laying on my belly.  Moving faster than I do.

What I'm loving:  
All her movement.  Even the jabs in the ribs and kicks in the bladder, I appreciate every one of them.

What I'm looking forward to:  
Meeting her.  It is so so so exciting!
Best moment this week: 
Getting to see her for almost an hour today.  She is measuring normal at 1 pound 1 ounce and I am so thankful!

And one more of a certain photo bomber...


always,
amanda
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Thursday, September 12, 2013

Things I have learned this Summer.

For the first time ever Rob and I can say we have lived somewhere together for a year.  Of course August 1st came and went with no fan fare.  I think about a week later is when it dawned on me... our house-iversary had passed.  If you are military you know this is HUGE!  Cause seriously June 2010 I moved to Maryland.  June 2011 we moved back to Kansas for Rob's deployment.  July 2012 we moved to Georgia [with that extra month being in an empty apartment we never really shared].  And believe me this house feels like a home.

Since this has been our first settled summer that didn't include packing, loading, moving, unloading, unpacking, re-settling... I've learned some things...

  • I HATE bugs.  Which is unfortunate because Georgia seriously houses every single bug ever.  I've never had a problem with them before but seriously the bugs I have encountered this summer... over it.
  • Pregnancy is infinitely times better when your best friend from home is going through the same thing as you!
  • It is impossible to keep carpet clean with two rambunctious dogs.
  • That genetic blood stuff I have confuses people.  Long story short I was told a few years ago that I would need to give myself blood thinners while pregnant.  Of course my OB and his team of doctors took a huge look at it all and it amounted to less than half of a percentage of a chance of getting a blood clot, so I [thankfully] opted out of the blood thinners.
  • 90 degree weather is not too hot to break out the pumpkin scented candles.
  • Even being a stay-at-home wife I've found myself plenty busy.. between doctors appointments, the Spouse's club I chair for and keeping up with the house I'm doing great!
  • I've inherited another gene that I didn't know about.  I tested positive in my prenatal panels for the cystic fibrosis gene.  Luckily Rob isn't a carrier so it isn't a huge concern.
  • 90 degree weather is TOO hot for good deer hunting for the husband.
And...
  • I'm lucky to have great family and friends who support me.. no.matter.what.




always,
amanda
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Monday, September 9, 2013

Ohhhhhhh we're halfway there.

So I've debated on doing this since basically the first ultrasound.  After much deliberation I decided that this baby is pretty much the biggest part of our life right now (besides husbands college, hunting and football season.. bahaha).  Thus... I want to share and document this pregnancy.  I am going to do it on an every other week basis.  Now that I feel like I am starting to look pregnant, not just overweight.. it will be fun to see baby grow from the outside.  Plus I know all my friends and family will love seeing the updates.

What Fruit are you?
A banana.

Due date:  
January 28th--although Rob says the 27th based on some number he saw on screen during our last ultrasound...

How far along:  
20 weeks.
Next appointment:  
Wednesday!

Gender:  
Girl.

Total weight gain/loss:  
As of last appointment I was up a pound and a half.  I am sure that will change on Wednesday.  Which is fine by me.

Swelling: 
None.. unless I spend all day on my feet.

Maternity clothes:  
Maternity pants for sure.  How come no one told me that they are so much more comfortable?? Still in my shirts from pre-pregnancy.
Belly button:  
In.  But I can tell my belly is getting bigger because last week I had to order a maternity belly button ring.  I'm being selfish and want to keep my piercing in as long as possible!!!

Sleep:
So-so.  I nap better than I actually sleep.

Food cravings:  
None really.  French fries always make me happy though.

Symptoms:  
My allergies are ridiculous ever since my trip back to Kansas.  Like.. open the back door and I am sneezing ridiculous.  Otherwise things are going smoothly.

Movement:  
Sometimes when I am laying on the couch I can feel her.  Nothing on the outside yet.. I can't wait for that though because I know the husband will be crazy excited.. and in awe.
Labor signs: 
None. Thank goodness.

What I miss:  
Laying on my belly.  Running errands all day without feeling completely wiped out.  And rum.

What I'm loving:  
The notion that I am creating a human!  It still seems so new.  Plus I love it when certain outfits flatter the belly.

What I'm looking forward to:  
Definitely the appointment Wednesday.  It seems like forever since we last saw her.  Even though it was just a month.  I can't wait for sure!

Best moment this week: 
Being done with my college education... I don't think it will ever get old knowing that I've completed my bachelor's degree!
Customary in the mirror pic.
Totally didn't realize until just now that I always face the same direction when holding the bump.

always,
amanda
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Monday, September 2, 2013

Design Through Pictures.

Happy Labor Day friends!  I hope everyone is having a fantastic, safe end of Summer celebration!!

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So now that I have allllllllllllllllll this free time on my hands I've been contemplating tackling some house projects before little bit gets here.  [[Nesting, maybe?!]]  I'm thinking of updating the gallery hallway.. finishing the decorations in the master.. and then finally starting on the nursery.

But you know how when you cruise Pinterest and fall in love with one [or five] trends?  That's been me.  I'm obsessed with canvas prints!  Something about the way they stand out no matter what the setting... I'm telling you, it could not be more visually stunning.

Since then friends I have found THE company to work with from start to finish... Easy Canvas Prints.  Easy doesn't even begin to describe the ordering process for this company.

I placed my order on a Thursday in a couple of easy steps:
1. Picked my canvas size [8" by 10"]
2. Picked my wrap size
3. Picked out my image
4. Made sure the quality was just right
5. Picked out the display options [hanging]
6. Selected border option [plain black trim]
7. Added to my cart and...
...That was that.

In less than two weeks I had the canvas in my hands!
It. Is. Beautiful.

It came snug as a bug, in one piece, just the way I ordered it.

And now my friends I have to find a place to hang my beautiful new photo canvas print... the options are literally endless.  And YOURS will be TOO!

**I was not compensated for my post, but I did receive a free 8" by 10" canvas to review for this post.  All thoughts are my own and reflect my experience with Easy Canvas Prints.**



always,
amanda
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