Saturday, August 27, 2011

Rest in sweet peace.

On August 26th, 2011 at 5 pm.  My grandfather died joining his angel wife in heaven.  His suffering is over, and now ours begins.

I happened to be over at my parents ranting and raving about very trivial things when my Mom got off work, walked through the door, listened and let me get out before I took one genuine look at her face and realized that something was very very wrong.

We knew the day was coming.  The nurse said 1 to 2 weeks just earlier this week.  For over a year now he has been fighting congestive heart failure and the pain of leaving his house and freedom behind when he was admitted permanently to the nursing home last summer.

Rob and I were thankful to spend a day with him in June when we got home.  It was a "good day" for him.  He was alert, awake and there with us that day.  He raved about how wonderful the strawberry milkshake was that we brought him from Dairy Queen and I left feeling content and happy.. that was the last time I saw him.

Now I'm left with the thoughts of how much I will miss his stories, his random laughter, his theories about life, his hugs, buckling him into the car (even when he was healthy and we were young..).. just everything.  All the memories, the laughter, the years.  Next to my Grandma Ritter, Grandpa Johnson was one of the best things to happen to me.  And now he's gone.

It's going to take so long to realize this.  And while mourning the loss, I have to be strong for my mom.  She reminds me of a kid right now.  So lost, and so sad.

But at the end of the day, we have to be at peace knowing that he is no longer in pain.. he's free.


Just keep us in your prayers please..

Thursday, August 25, 2011

Really?!

Tonight I am missing Maryland.  Maybe not Maryland specifically, but the relationships I had with other military spouses and the fact that my husband was around..

Don't get me wrong.  I love Kansas.  I enjoy being around my family and being back in my comfort zone.  But I'm realizing more and more that when I chose to get married so young, I took a step away from some of my friends here in Kansas.  They will never understand.  And in return, I will never understand some of their choices.  The hardest part for me though is hearing my friends throw out that the reason I don't want to go out on a Wednesday night is because I'm married.. not because I have to work the next morning and get up at 7:30.  Which is obviously the true reason.  Just because I'm married does not mean I am not 21 anymore and the same Amanda I've always been.  Seems to be such a huge hurdle for some people to get over.

Or maybe it's just a big one for me to get over.  Maybe I am not the same anymore?  I've decided to grow up and made a big step in my life, while many will not do that for several years still.  One day they will understand...

And that's what I miss about Maryland.  The friendships I had there were based around us all being devoted married military wives.  We understood each other.  Especially since many of us had gotten married young.  I guess sometimes it rings true that mil wives will only understand certain things about each other that others just can't.  Not many of those friendships have carried on since I moved back to Kansas and their lives went on.  But if I ever run into them again, you can bet we'd have tons to catch up on...

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Where the blacktop ends..

Well I finally have some time after an incredibly busy weekend to write a little bit.  Two cheers to that.

--Friday night was Keith Urrrrrrban and Jake Owen with my mom, dad and sister.  Such an amazing country concert.  It wasn't all about turning it into a show, it was just them singing.  Songs from the past, present and future.  Which made it a relaxing fun time.  Literally the only two things missing were Rob and a good margarita (long story short, the one I bought had too much mix and not enough tequila.. gross.)  Next time I will just stick with beer!!

--Piston and I spent all day Saturday being lazy and it was WONDERFUL.  We literally laid in bed till like 5.  I was reading and he was obviously sleeping.  The only thing I left to do was run some errands.  But hey, we still got our lazy on.. and I couldn't have asked for a better day.

--Yesterday morning we got up to go meet up with a friend from one of my JCCC classes.  Erin came with us and we tried to get some good pictures of Piston.  The friend is a budding photographer who needs pictures for her portfolio.  So I threw a challenge at her to take a picture of an active boxer.  And let me tell you, he didn't let us down.  It was a challenge.  By the end I was sweating so much and covered in dog hair and slobber.  But hopefully we got some good picture so just him, him and I, and just me.

--After that we went to my parents for lunch, and P came with.  He was such a good boy!  Partly because he was tired I think, and partly because deep down he is a good boy.  :) I was very proud, and now I'm not so concerned about Christmas.  I think him and I are going to stay the night there Christmas Eve into day.. and I'm not as concerned about him being good anymore.  Very satisfying when your dog is a big ole' handful.

--When we were done there we dropped the dog off and headed back to my parents to go to a Sporting KC game at the new Livestrong park.  Very nice stadium.. like really nice.  Unfortunately DC United (who is legitimately my team, since I rooted for them when I first started watching soccer) lost.. if only they could replace the goalie!  I ran into an old friend though and it was just an all over good experience.  Minus the dripping sweat!  Minor inconvenience.

--Today was back to work.. and I've made some changes in my life lately, including dropping pepsi from my routine, walking the dog every night and flossing!  It seems to fit in perfect with my boss.  She's a very healthy person (obviously I mean she is a doctor) and she believes in natural remedies.  So today she got me started on a supplement that should help with my allergies.  The pills themselves smell like the hay they give the cows out in Western Kansas, but if I can just get past that, I am hoping it will help.  Because today those allergies took a nasty flare up.. at 4 in the morning!! Lame.  But I'm starting to think working here may be EXTREMELY good for me.. get me headed down a healthier path.  And maybe just maybe I will be 10x better when Rob gets back. :)

--And finally, after work today I had my first online orientation for Devry.  Classes start in exactly one week.  Seems like the system and ways of their online classes are much like the online classes I took at JCCC.  So as long as I time manage appropriately, this should be fairly simple.  And by simple I mean in the way things go, not the topics at hand.  Statistics and into to graphic design (not the real course title but basically what it is..) will hopefully not be TOO challenging this session!

Friday, August 19, 2011

Epic Fail

If I would have had anything to post about this week, believe me I would have.

Besides church and laundry at my parents on Sunday it has been the same routine all week.  Work all day, eat dinner, walk Piston, fall asleep on the couch, get ready for bed, talk to Rob, then go to bed.  Eventful huh?  I had Monday off though so I got to catch dinner and catch up with my best friend.  So thankful to be back close to her again.  To say the least.  And it had been a couple of weeks since I last saw her, so we had TONS of catching up to do.

Tomorrow is another off day that is already filling up with stuff, just like the rest of the weekend.  Maybe I will have some interesting stories to share very soon! :) Here's to hoping!

For those of you that started school again or will start soon, good luck.

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Take me out to the ball game.

Well, well, well.. today was awfully eventful!

Got up early (earlier than I'd obviously like) to go to some Farmer's Markets.  The Shawnee, Overland Park and downtown ones to be exact.  I'd never been to City Market, so that was amazing.  Rob's grandparents met me on the plaza and took me down there with them.  Just rows and rows and rows and tables and tables and tables of fruit, veggies and crafts.  I was so impressed.  If I were more of a morning person I'd probably make it a habit to get up and go to them every weekend.

After that I came home to shower and take a nap.. hey, I was exhausted.  But once I was awake again, it was off to my parents for a T-Bones game.  Which was a total blast.  My family managed to get some amazing suite tickets from someone we know.  So we sat outside at some tables in the shade with the wind blowing into a bit of a chill.. drinking beer, snacking on ballpark food and laughing at all the stories being passed between the group of neighbors that was assembled together for the evening.  The T-Bones lost.. but we still got to watch an amazing firework show dedicated to our heroes.  (Take a random stab at who mine is.. ;) )

Such a nice day.. and totally worth being a bit sleep deprived. :)

Want to leave yall with this amazing story:

Making of a Military Wife
Submitted by: MilitaryMomma
Author: Unknown

When the good Lord was creating Wives, he was into his sixth day of overtime.

An angel appeared and said, "You're having a lot of trouble with this one. What's wrong with the standard model?"

And the Lord replied, "Have you seen the specs on this order? She has to be completely independent, but must be sponsored to get on post; have the qualities of both father and mother during deployments; be a perfect hostess to 4 or 40; run on black coffee; handle emergencies without a manual; be able to handle flu, birthdays and moves around the world; have a kiss that can cure anything from a child's torn Valentine to a husband's weary day; have the patience of a saint when waiting for the Unit to return home; and have six pairs of hands."

The angel shook her hand slowly and said, "Six pairs of hands... no way!"

And the Lord answered, "Don't worry, we'll make other military wives to help. Besides it's not the hands that are causing the problem, it's the heart. It must swell with pride in her husband, sustain the ache of separations, beat on soundly when it's too tired to do so and be large enough to say, "I Understand" when she doesn't, and 'I love you' regardless."

"Lord," said the angel, touching his sleeve gently. "Come to bed... finish this tomorrow!"

"I can't," said the Lord. "I'm so close to creating something unique. Already I have one who heals herself when she's sick, can feed three unexpected guests who are stuck in the area due to bad weather, and can wave good-bye to her husband, from a pier, off a runway and understand that it is important to his country that he leaves."

The angel circled the model of the military wife very slowly. "It's too soft," she sighed.

"But tough," said the Lord excitedly. "You cannot imagine what this woman can do or endure."

"Can it think?"

"Can it think? It can convert 1400 to 2 p.m."

Finally, the angel bent over and ran her finger across the cheek. "There's a leak," she pronounced. "I told you that you were trying to put too much into this model."

"It's not a leak," said the Lord. "It's a tear."

"What's it for?" asked the angel.

"It's for joy. Sadness. Disappointment. Pain, loneliness and pride!"

"You are a genius," sighed the angel.

The Lord looked somber and replied, "I didn't put it there."

Friday, August 12, 2011

That stinks!

Whoa buddy can the dog pop a fart off stinkier than it should probably really smell..

Ha ha.  Another week has practically flown by.  As long as things continue to go this way, I am beyond good with it. :)

This also means another week of work complete.  Along with work this week held more awesome adventures as well.  Such as.. I started a gym routine that includes taking the dog for a walk everyday.  Yesterday I took him to the dog park and we met Kara there.  I wasn't too thrilled by it.  And I only say that because it's not a fully closed in area of land.  But it wore him out.  Which was the ultimate goal.  Plus he got his interaction with other dogs.  Can't wait until the day we can get him a friend.  That day obviously will not be until we have a giant fenced in backyard that is just screaming for dogs to tumble around in.  Anyway, also took Piston to my parents yesterday for a chat, and he was so relaxed and chill he even let my Dad pet him.  A very strange occurrence.

Got paid my first paycheck today.. now I'm reminded why people work.  It feels empowering to be making your own money.  Did some shopping and picked up a bottle of wine to enjoy while watching Jersey Shore and other trash TV recorded on my DVR.  In my opinion, how could it get better??  Oh wait.  It could.  My main man could be right next to me right now.  More than likely asleep.  Cause lord knows he conks out way before me, all the time.

Will probably be headed to bed soon as tomorrow is a busy day!  This week I am going to try and get on a routine where I updated this thing every night or something.  It's a huge relaxing thing at the end of the day.  ESPECIALLY since I spend a lot of time during the day not talking to anyone as my boss at work is in with patients the majority of the day.

But if anyone is wondering---I am doing fine.  My school starts on the 29th.  I'm enrolled in 2 classes this session.  One for my degree and the other is stats.  Once that starts I will obviously be even busier than I feel right now.  But it makes the time go by faster, which who can ever complain about that when you are waiting for a year to go by quickly?

Monday, August 8, 2011

Whew

I should be sleeping but THIS thing needs updated!


So, I got the job.  I started last Monday.. so this past week was my first full week of being back to work.  So far so good.  I like it.. keeps me busy and makes the week just fly by.  Piston and I are still adjusting to it though.  He isn't a big fan of spending all day in his kennel, and I'm not a big fan of being the one that has to lock him up in his kennel every time.  Also there is this thing called getting up at 7 in the morning to be at work by 8:45.  Let me tell you THAT'S an adjustment.  LOL.

Anyway so mostly all of last week was work.  Which I'm not too bothered by! :) Friday I ran all my errands and spent some time with Lindsay.  We went and saw Friends with Benefits.  Which is good, but makes you miss your husband when he is so far from home.  That's okay I enjoyed it.. kind of awkward watching it with a bunch of old couples though.  Ha ha.  Saturday I helped my sister move into her sorority house.  Kind of makes me wish that I had gone to a university and lived though all of that stuff.. but only for a brief second and then I am back in reality loving my life exactly how it is.  Minus the fact that Rob is so far from home.  Saturday night Kara and Colin came over and we drank margaritas, ate pizza and watched Sex and the City. So it was super nice and relaxing.. then today I did nothing but laundry, some dishes and I washed the dog.  Obviously that was beyond fabulous especially after sleeping till noon! :)

Other than that, I am hoping that tomorrow I will know what the situation is for my schooling.  Also hoping that tomorrow they will come fix the garbage disposal and shower drain.  That would be nice!!  But I guess we will see..

It's super late though, and it's raining so I am going to hit the hay. :) Some more much needed sleep is on it's way to me.  Then another work week ahead.