Saturday, December 31, 2011

End of the year.

((I know technically there is one day left in 2011.. but seeing as how my sister and one of her friends decided about an hour ago that they are for sure coming to hang out here tomorrow night.. I'm not sure I will be sitting much tomorrow.))

How 2011 started.

This year has not always been cheery, beautiful or spectacular as it should be.  But given the circumstances (as I find myself saying more often than not..) it was a success.

I learned a lot about myself like you do each year you grow older.  As Rob and I grew in our marriage, I learned more about being a parent, friend, daughter, sister, in-law and employee.  I'd say I've successfully fallen into my roles (for the most part) by now.  Life is a learning process, and while I can say it's been a successful growth opportunity, I also feel like it is never a done deal..

This year has taught me many things about myself:

-I am strong.  When I have to be.  When I have no choice but to be strong for the dog, or my husband, then I can do it.  With Rob deployed it wasn't an option to be a strong woman for my family, it was life.. there were no choices.

-Sometimes I have very little patience.  Although I am sure some of my family (cough Dad) would say that this has ALWAYS been the case.  Which may be true.. but my "little patience" was tested more than once with a certain dog.

-I was far too critical of my parents house and how clean it was kept.  It was/is/will always be comfortably lived in.  My apartment is the EXACT same way.  Yes, I try and keep it clean.  But working 4 days a week all day, going to school full time and having my little family are bigger priorities then my apartment always looking spotless.

-I have awful anxiety issues.  This seems to have developed after Rob left.  But I will think all day about the oven being left on, a fire in the apartment building, someone intruding while I shower, etc.  Crazy situations.. but once I have thought about it, I can't get my mind off of it.  It's nuts.

-I'm very defensive.  Of my family. My friends.  Even my acquaintances.  You want to talk bad about them, then I will tell you my two cents.  Every time.

-I'm learning everyday to just roll with it a little bit more.  I try to suppress getting upset and angry as my first instinct.  Granted this doesn't always happen, but it is getting a little bit easier.

-Hobby Lobby is a serious weakness.  Not so much for the crafts, but the holiday decorations on sale so far in advance.. if I walk in there.  I'm done for.  I'm leaving with SOMETHING.

-Being a wife will always be my first job and biggest priority.  No matter where my husband is.  It's a crazy, hectic, tiring job sometimes but it's so rewarding to know that someone loves and relies on you as much as mine does.

As for the new year.. I'm not sure I am going to write down resolutions.  I mean I have things in my mind I'd like to accomplish.  But I'm not going to get mad if they fall through like they do every year.  I'm going to do everything in my power to achieve what I want this year.. but at the end of the day.. as long as I am alive and well.. 2012 will be a success.

I wish each and every one of you a very happy New Year.  I hope it is safe and that it starts out on a great foot.

Always,
Amanda

Sunday, December 25, 2011

Merry Christmas!



Puts things in perspective today, huh?

It's been a busy 24 hours for us.  As Piston and I came over yesterday at 3, and are still here today at 3.  Between mass, Christmas dinner, presents, a way too short night of sleep, Santa presents (yes I'm 21 and still indulge in "Santa"), some movies and overall keeping Piston entertained.. I haven't had a whole lot of time to think about what is missing this year.  But that thought sits there in the back of my mind.. my husband is not home.  That's the one thing I wish different about this year.

At the end of the day it has been a success.. new toys for the dog that have left him sprawled across the floor sleeping.. hard.  Some wanted gifts (Snooki slippers anyone??) and some needed gifts (a fireproof safe).  Lots of laughter about the most random things.  Some alcohol and family time.  The most ideal kind of Christmas.

So on this day I'd like to wish you and yours a Merry Christmas.  I hope it is a safe one and that if you are by chance separated from those nearest and dearest to you this year, I pray that they come home safely to you soon.

Our countdown to R and R has started. =)  But the festivities of today are not over.. 

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Four point oh!

Exciting news!!

That 4.0 from last session at DeVry?  Still there!!

I was a bit worried.. why you ask?  I had the worst professor EVER.  I mean this is only my second session at DeVry but this guy was like halfway there but kind of not really.  As a result he never posted in discussion threads, never provided feedback on homework and never answered questions in a timely manner.  Well by week seven of eight I had pretty much had it with this dude.  I was still missing about half a dozen grades in the gradebook.  Luckily I was not the only one getting fed up with homeboy over there.  There were tons of e-mails going back and forth between classmates as everyone was scrambling and freaking out and discussing what to do.  Well anyway... I completed my final test and then basically washed my hands of it all..

Until I got one of those grades that was missing back.  He has taken 10 points off of a 60 point assignment and he told me four things when providing me with feedback.. "sketchy, ill developed and lacking color... more like a highly developed thumbnail."  Seriously dude?  I followed the directions word for word.  Did what I was supposed to do and now you are just going to take random points off?  So I may or may not have fired back and said that it would have been nice if he would have helped and then suggested that he reconsider next session considering how this one went.

Ooopss... in retrospect, probably not the smartest move.

So then I spent 3 full days stressing about what could make or break my session.  And regretting posting so hastily (ever have one of those moments?)  Thank goodness he decided to not be a total prick and passed me with an A.

Carry on 4.0.. carry on.

Monday, December 19, 2011

Need to get this out of my system.

First I'd like to start by saying it was a WONDERFUL weekend here.  Friday I helped my sister move out of her sorority house and into a house house.  Saturday I got ALL my Christmas shopping done with one of my frannns..  Today I got to see Trans Siberian Orchestra and the Chiefs woooooooped some butt!  Hell to the yes.  So good weekend?  Most definitely.

But one thing has been driving me nuts all weekend.  This "celebration" of the war in Iraq being over.  Yes, by all means that is an outstanding reason to celebrate.  We no longer have troops there.. one less unstable place for our men and women to be occupying.  BUT.. those troops aren't home.  Some, yes.  Not all.  And the media/president/leaders want Americans to believe that these troops are going to be home for the holidays and on safe ground.  WRONG.  The majority are temporarily in Kuwait.  Some will be heading home.. but a lot will just be reassigned to Afghanistan.  For those of us close to the military, that is not a reason to celebrate.. at all.

Sidenote, I've been kind of emotional lately.  I don't know why.

I just want to shout at the top of my lungs that what we see/hear on the news, is not necessarily the real deal.   Some people are just so naive and take what they hear as the truth and don't ever question it.. and it kills me.

Please let me know if you know/sympathize with what I'm saying.


And one more thing while I am getting some ranting out of my system.  I HATE bandwagon people.  For example.. last weekend the Chiefs had 23958221987 million negative status' about them.  This week they beat the undefeated Packers, and now all of a sudden EVERYONE loves them again.  Shut up, no you don't.

I love the Kansas City Chiefs.. Monday through Sunday.. 365 days a year 24/7.  Yeah they have their suck weekends.  And yeah they piss me off, but you'll NEVER hear me say that I'm not a fan or that I hate them.

Just to be clear.

Oh.. and FINAL thing.  It frustrates me so much that the only way I have to communicate with my husband is through technology.  If for whatever reason, technology is out on either end.. then we are S.O.L.  If the technology is sucking big time, oh well.. can't do nothing about it.  Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for the technology but I miss rolling over in bed and having my husband there, or looking down the couch and having him there.  Over this deployment stuff.

I cried when they thanked the troops at Trans Siberian Orchestra today.  And I'm not ashamed to admit it.

(Like I said, EMOTIONAL.)

End being negative nelly over huuuuuur.


I have one of my grades back for this session.  94%. Waiting on my other class still.. but I'm feeling pretty dang confident about that 4.0 carrying through another session. =)

It's the week before Christmas.  I'm actually not dreading this week quite so much.  I feel it will go fast and then it will be time to load P's kennel up and jet off to my parentals for a SLUMBER PARTY/celebration.  Maybe I'm finally starting to feel in the mood?

Now just presents to wrap.  An apartment to clean.. and a few days of getting up way earlier than I like to and I can say I survived Christmas.

Whose with me?

Friday, December 16, 2011

MilSpouse Friday Fill-In

Hosted by Wife of a Sailor.

1. One of my New Year's resolutions is to maintain my 4.0 GPA.

2. One thing I'd like to happen next year is for Rob to return safely and our next move to be smooth and easy.

3. One thing I'm looking forward to next year is moving again.  I'm anxious to get out of this apartment, especially since we will be looking for a HOUSE with a backyard for our next rental.

4. One change I'd like to see next year is my body going back to semi normal.

5. My plans for NYE include nothing. That's right I'm 21 and more than likely I will be ringing in the new year with my dog.  And possibly (if he isn't working) my hubby over skype.

always,
Amanda

Wednesday, December 14, 2011

Christmas Card Stats.

In the midst of trying to catch up on my week plus of blog posts to read... I came across this post by Adventures of M-Squared.  I may or may not have gotten a little bit excited thinking about my own demographics for the Christmas cards I sent out this last week...  So this evening I sat down and here you go folks:

One card was sent overseas. (Kuwait, obviously.)
29 cards were sent to people/families in Kansas.
5 cards were sent to some friends in Maryland.
3 cards were sent to Florida.
3 cards were sent to Oregon.
2 cards were sent to North Carolina.
2 cards were sent to Texas.
And Missouri, California, Virginia and Georgia all received one.

For a grand total of 49 cards sent to 10 different states and one other country.

All because...
(a little note Mom included in her latest 'checking in' card.)

=) And I may be the only person in the world that gets enjoyment out of sending cards to friends and family.. but I know that if I can cheer just one person's day up by getting a card on a less than stellar day, then it's a good day for me.

always,
Amanda

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

On day xyz...

Christmas caught up with me.

It's been 10 days since I last posted.  10 excruciating days for you all I am sure.  But have no fear.. I have not been sitting on the couch watching TV rather than blogging.. I've been doing other things.. Yea that's right.  Other things.

Like decorating the apartment.  This year we are using my Grandpa's little old tree.  It's perfect for the size of our apartment.  Holds all my favorite ornaments too!  Along with the tree, our stockings our lined by the chimney bookshelf with care.  And a few strands of lights adorn our balcony and doorway.. it's perfect.  Enough to give me that I love winter/Christmas feeling when I wake up in the morning and come into a softly lit living room with a tree standing proudly in the corner.  One thing I will always remember about Christmas at my parents house.. it's just this feeling I can't even describe.



Like helping my parents decorate their house.  We spent an afternoon in the chilly rainy drizzle looking for that perfect tree.  In reality we were satisfying the same quest we go through every year.  Several Christmas tree farms followed by finding the prefect tree already cut leaning up against a wooden frame somewhere.  Another afternoon was spent fiddling around while the mess of Christmas decorating overcame my parents living room.  And at last Brindi and Roxie, found the spirit of Christmas on a blanket waiting to go back to college with my sister.



Like making the Dean's List at school.  Pretty self explanatory.. but my first semester at DeVry and I ended with a 4.0 and this letter in the mail... I'm proud.  To say the least.



Like playing in the snow dusting with Piston.  He's a fan.  A hardcore one.  He doesn't care whether it's a dusting or a 2 foot pile.  He sticks his nose in it and pushes it around.  All the while his tail wagging a million miles an hour.  I stand there next to him and you can't help but smile and laugh along with him.  (And then you get in the car and drive to work and your 15 minute commute takes an hour..)

(please notice the tail going a million miles an hour.)

Like visiting my in-laws.  This last Saturday was spent driving down to see my second family in Springfield, MO.  But I was not alone.. my parents accompanied me.  They got to meet even more of Rob's family and I think everyone enjoyed themselves. ;)  The only thing missing was Rob, of course.

(Rob's step-mom Amy, dad Mark and brother Daylen.
Not the best picture.  Texas Roadhouse hates me.
I NEVER get good pics from there.)

All the while working, finishing up my last week of school (Winter break starts in 3 days.. but whose keeping track?) and putting off Christmas shopping as long as possible.  Please don't make me go into elaborate details as to why the shopping is being put off.  The general gist is... Christmas drivers make me mad.  People in a rush make me mad.  Not finding what I want/need makes me mad.  Next year I WILL be shopping from home.. online... in October or something ridiculous.

It's just under two weeks to Christmas.. there is so much going on.. but first I must get this final report submitted and test completed.. then it's home freeeeeeeeeeeeee.

Hope all my dandy bloggers are doing great!  (I'm trying to catch up on readings.. I'm a week behind though.  YIKES!)

always,
Amanda

Saturday, December 3, 2011

MilSpouse Friday Fill-In


Hosted by Wife of a Sailor.



  1. If I could be on any reality TV show, I'd want to be on... IF I had the talent.. Dallas Cowboys Cheerleaders.
  2. This past Thanksgiving was great.  I loved seeing my extended family and spending time with my parents and sister.  But I missed my husband, a lot.
  3. I'm looking forward to December because it's one month closer to seeing Rob again.
  4. One thing I'd like to accomplish this month is getting an A in my Advanced Design class.. if only my professor would grade my homework so I know where I stand.
  5. To me, winter is better than summer cause I can always add more layers!


Stay tuned for pictures of my casa dolled up for Christmas.

always,
Amanda